LATE NIGHT SNACKING

 Have you ever woken up at night, just because of how hungry you were?

I PROMISE NOT TO JUDGE YOU 🤭

I've heard a lot of people say that it happened to them but I had never experienced it until the year 2016.

I refused to eat properly that evening, settling for some snacks at 5pm, so when the first wave hit me at 1, I couldn't even go back to bed. After turning and turning, I got up, called Mum out, to ask for permission to cook.

I did that because of her standing rule since the day we started cooking, "No late night cooking in her kitchen, anything after 10.30pm is OYO" 🥺

Also she has a really sensitive nose, so she'll definitely catch you 🙄

Her reason for allowing me that night was that she had noticed that I didn't eat properly. Truthfully, I thought I would do a lot of begging, but it was all in my head. She even followed me, helped me make the food and sat until I finished eating.

I WAS MORE THAN AMAZED... (so if you can suggest a word for that feeling, go right ahead).

Let me get to the point

We will make some decisions that are not going to be great, we will make mistakes and there's always a result for those actions.

In those moments, it's easier to get defensive or even feel ashamed of admitting wrong. You may even feel so disappointed that you don't think sharing will do any good.

Honestly, the moment between when I started feeling hungry and when I spoke up about it was such a loonngg while. And the only response I was sure I'll get was a NO.

Why was I being so hard on myself?

I knew better (which is very likely the case many times) and I knew the rules but my smartnesss-ty got in the way. I had done sentencing for myself on that matter, and was so ready to go back to bed with that feeling. I am grateful I gathered liver to wake Mum up, cos years later, I'm using that experience to write this piece... Tainzzzzz Mum🥰

I hope I've not lost you. 🥺  🥺

I really have a point 🤭

And if anyone longs to be wise, ask God for wisdom and he will give it! He won’t see your lack of wisdom as an opportunity to scold you over your failures but he will overwhelm your failures with his generous grace.

James (Jacob) 1:5 TPT

You dinnor see that coming abi...😎

Ok, let's continue.

There's usually that tendency to hold stuff in and move on from it, whenever our outcomes are different from what was planned, but truth is we never move from it. Those events save up in our memories.

You saw the signs but you still went ahead with what you wanted or you made a terrible mistake, that's understandable.

What isn't is how you have decided to beat yourself up about it.

In this case, you are the one punishing yourself and doing Judge-and-Jury work on yourself. Someone else already took up that job offer, Accuser of the brethren.

Can I ask you to read that verse I put up again?

Did you read it?

Did it hit differently (or not)?

One thing I've learned is our journeys will have it's plot twists, but the state of God's heart for His children will NEVER EVER CHANGE.

God is watching and waiting on you to quit holding those experiences and feelings in. Talk to Him about it, ask Him for Wisdom on what to do next.

What you will experience will be far greater joy and peace than I experienced when Mum helped me cook and sat with me till I finished eating.

The no-late-night-cooking rule still stands, BTW 🤭

How did reading this make you feel?

Please share with me in the comment section.

See you in a bit🖐🏼